this must be like the telephone

no email today. this must be like what it's like to expect a boy to call you and just keep waiting. it shouldnt matter anyway. i don't really have a full-fledged crush, i don't think, and even if i did, it's a bit far fetched, mostly cause he's a senior at franklin. i'm just being silly. i still want to see him again, but i should probably give it up, for a while. computer talking always makes these things fizzle anyway. fizzle and die. i hope that doesn't happen, at least. or that the emails don't just stop. i don't think either is really worse, just different. i just hope to talk in person again soon. i really need to think about something else more perminently. ahhhh! so, i'm really tired, which possibly makes no sense because i stayed home until lunch after going to bed at 9ish. i just feel quesy and warm. my notes aren't done yet and i have to do them and some that would be due today but i can probably get away with turning in tommarow because i didn't go to the class. i only slept in till about 8:30-9:00, but i am just off and on sick. i think i need a "katie fix" as i like to call it. she is one of my very best friends and i just feel much more hyper and happy when i can look forward to seeing her, and then actually see her. she has been sick for almost two school days. i suppose it's not that long, but i've been about twice as morbid today as usual. that's no fun. life is for fun! tommarow would start out soooo great, okay perfect, if the very very improbable happened. 1.) katie came back and we had lots of fun together like normal 2.) i would find out pretty early that i got into outdoor school week 4 and that i get to work in plants 3.) topher wrote and asked me to go to oaks park with him and 4.) we found out we both got week 4, plants! yay! i'm going to bask in the glow of improbability!