only me

This is my journal site just for me and the few who stumble upon it. I'm not sure I want my friends to see it, but I guess I'll be okay if they do. Feel free to read and enjoy!

Saturday, June 26, 2004

he is soooooo.... hot!!!!!

HASH(0x8aa98d8)
You've Got Spike! He's the stereo-typical bad boy
that you just can't get enough of. And
obviously you can't if you made a building
collapse, you shameless hussy!

Which Buffy Boy Are You Likely To Snatch?
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Friday, June 25, 2004

late

it's about 11:35 and I am still awake. I guess it's all the previous late nights this summer, but I am having a hard time sleeping, but a hard time staying awake, if that makes any sense. It is also freaking hot. I am at Sarah's again, so I figure I can write this mindless blather and practice my typing again. Every wpm (words per minute)time I can decrease will help this upcoming year, because in case you haven't heard, I want to do everything. I love every soul, even though some times that sounds so impossible, but when I think about people, the people in my school, the people in the world, well, it sounds really corny but it's like, I can't stand the fact that all those amazing souls are out there that I am not even going to glimpse, let alone start to understand, and it all makes me want to cry. Corny, right? but really think about it. People are imperfect, obviously, (I head that list) and completely simple and complex all at once, but through every one of my crappy analicies they remain amazingly beautiful. I think it is those imperfections that make people so perfect. Never give in.

i'm a freaky-deaky!!!

"You are totally weird. No, you're a freak. JUST LIKE ME! Good luck. Not like you'll need it." this is my quizzie result! yay!

kisser

HASH(0x8b2a0dc)
Your soul is OPEN-MINDED. Although you do have
strong opinions and make decisions, you never
make them without thinking first of not only
everything that is, but those that may not be
as well. People trust that you'll willingly
hear them out and understand when they tell you
something, and you are well-liked for it. You
are often the mediator in disputes and your
desire to do what is right overcomes all else.
You are an understanding and admirable soul.

What Is Your Soul's Trait?
brought to you by Quizilla I took this quiz the way I want to be deeply. I don't know if I'm so confident now, but I'm workin on it!

trait

HASH(0x8b2a0dc)
Your soul is OPEN-MINDED. Although you do have
strong opinions and make decisions, you never
make them without thinking first of not only
everything that is, but those that may not be
as well. People trust that you'll willingly
hear them out and understand when they tell you
something, and you are well-liked for it. You
are often the mediator in disputes and your
desire to do what is right overcomes all else.
You are an understanding and admirable soul.

What Is Your Soul's Trait?
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why?

"why do you have to be so much more when you're away than you are when you're here, with me, like this?"

Monday, June 14, 2004

hearts


Your Heart is Red

What Color is Your Heart?
brought to you by Quizilla this makes me happy!

another quiz, but it's kinda daunting. Passionate- Physical love can be a huge factor in your life.
Your inner self loves with the body more than
the mind. You have or someday will hurt someone
because of that.

Who are you inside?
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guy

definatly a full out crush....keep it goin, you got
the hots for him, and it seems that he thinks
theres a connection goin on too...a deep one,
if all that flirting hasnt worn u out yet...go
for it

Do YoU rEaLy LiKe HiM?
brought to you by Quizilla i took a quiz for another one of my stupid, twisty crushes. ya, i'm crushin, but it is so annoying. we only talk like, half the time, but when we do, i can't help but flirt my butt off, and every once in a while he gets kinda close to me. he gets on these brooding streaks, and secretly, every time he does i can't help but want to kiss his cares away.. also, every time he gets a little nerve and does something really flirty, like somehow touching my arm and talking about it's softness, i can't help but pull away, even though all i really want to do is to tell him to that when he is confident, i want to let myself melt so bad, and i wish that he would keep getting more confident until i do.

Sunday, June 13, 2004

365
You're Elemant is Wind. You're light-hearted,
care-free, kind, sensative, and mysterious. You
have friends and most absolutely love you. You
can be calm and soothing one minute and ragging
in anger the next so no one wants to get on
your bad side. You're beauty is inspiring and
magical.

What's Your Element(girls)? (PICTURES)
brought to you by Quizilla i dunno... but i guess... *real tear streams from the right eye*

hey, candy!

cho
You're chocolate. You're the old soul type, people
feel that they have known you their entire
life. Many often open up to you for they view
you as thoughtful and trustworthy. Although
people trust you, you have a hard time trusting
them. You prefer to keep your feelings bottled
up inside, or display them very quietly. It is
alright to open up every once in a while.

Which kind of candy are you?
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angelic

pure
Congrats! Your a Pure Angel! Angels, as far as most
of them go, are all compatabile creatures, but
Pure ones simply are symbols of God. Pure
Angels always appear when a child is born, when
a rainbow is seen, or when someone shares their
first kiss. They never grow old, an can appear
in the shape of a naked woman with white, bold
wings. Pure angels are the carriers of god, and
show their love to everyone in the world.

What Kind of ANGEL are you? (For Girls only) This Quiz has amazingly Beautiful Pictures!
brought to you by Quizilla mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm...

calmness

calm
You have a Calm Soul! Being calm and cool is what
you do best. You collected thoughts and always
positive attitude make you very bright and
logical. When theres a problem, you know how to
approach it, and solve it. Your friends rely on
you on their problems, and your shoulder for
their crying. You are peaceful, and enjoy
nature and freedom. You rarely get angry and
hardly scream, which makes you good with kids.
You seem to be in tune with the world and if
anything goes wrong, you always bounce back.

What Kind of SOUL do you posses? (For Girls only) Incredible Anime Pictures!
brought to you by Quizilla maybe this fits... maybe

email quiz

i got this email quiz from icky nicky and liked it, so i am going to paste it and my results : > >> >>> Test To See How HOTT You Are~*~ > >>> GET A PIECE OF PAPER AND NUMBER IT 1-11(NO CHEATING) > >>> 1. Do you have dark or light hair? dark > >>> 2. If you were out on a date would you want to go to a party or go out to > >>> eat? party!!!! > >>> 3. What's your favorite color out of Pink, Yellow, Baby Blue, or Sea Green? sea green > >>> 4. Pick your favorite hobbies out of: Surfing, Skating, or Skiing surfing > >>> 5. If you could pick a store between OldNavy, Pacific Sunnier or > >>> Victoria's Secret which one would you pick? victoria's secret > >>> 6. What's yore favorite state out of California, Florida, or Ohio? california > >>> 7. In the summer would you rather go to the beach or go somewhere cooler? beach > >>> 8. What month were you born? november > >>> 9. Would you rather chill at home or go out with friends? go out with friends > >>> 10. Name a person of the opposite sex. ryan > >>> 11. Make a wish..... i wish everyone would be happy > >>> START NOW (its not that long..hehe........................) (answers at > >>> the bottom of page .................................................................................................................................. > >>> STOP!!!!! > >>> *ANSWERS* > >>> 1. dark- hot > >>> light- sexy > >>> 2. go out to eat- romantic > >>> go to a party- wild > >>> 3. pink- cute > >>> yellow-loud > >>> baby blue-cool > >>> sea green-horny > >>> 4. Surfing-active > >>> skating-determined > >>> skiing-sexy > >>> 5. old navy-preppy > >>> pacific sunnier-fun > >>> Victoria's secret-sexy > >>> 6. California-you like being around people > >>> Florida-party time in the heat > >>> Ohio-quiet, likes the cold > >>> 7. beach-tan loves the sun > >>> somewhere cooler-pale and original > >>> 8. January: popular > >>> February: lovely > >>> March: loud > >>> April: playful > >>> May: chills a lot > >>> June: happy > >>> July: smooth > >>> August: fun > >>> September: quiet > >>> October: out going > >>> November: Pimpin it > >>> December: warm > >>> 9. home: boring > >>> go out with friends: crazy > >>> 10. that person will fall in love with you!!! ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- according to my results i am: hot, wild, horny ,active, sexy, i like being around people, tan/ i love the sun, pimp'in it, crazy, and ryan, a barely bi-guy, will fall in love with me.

horrible

i hate yo!!! i hate her! in case she ever reads this i am not being racist, as she so rudely inferred the time i told her i hated her to her face, being racist in making the accusation when that was the furthest thing from my mind. i hate her because she's a b#@*%! and she played a major role in destroying any chance of a happy childhood, she aimed to kill my mom by telling her how horrible she was, and she has been mooching/ sucking the life out of us for years. but now i am back at sarah's (even though they are quietly raving sick of me), mind you missing an hour fifteen of Buffy, because my mom wants to be alone with her (prolly so they can shag) (ps my mom is a lesbian) (pps, nothing wrong with that but i am not). i stormed out crying because we moved and i thought that for once she would not destroy any place i could call home. i hate her. when she comes over as if she never did a thing wrong in her whole life i don't even want to look at her. i try to close my eyes and my ears because i can't stand the sound of her voice (which is a shame since it sounds like a lot of african american old lady women voices, the f@#$*&ing drunk!!!). i still remember fragments of the expressive poem i wrote so i wouldn't burst the night she came to the old apartment drunk. there were lines about the broken glass she scattered for me to walk on (a metaphor for the family she broke for the fun and spider-like suction of money). i hate her!!!!! *sigh*

music

i am a musical freak. i guess that's just me. i love random music, but rarely know who sings it or what it's called, and i don't have the money to try out all the bands i want. this love will therefore lead me to randomly write lyrics i like, so any readers (maybe even me) bear with me. "cause we lost it all, nothin lasts forever, i'm sorry i can't be perfect now it's just too late, and we can't go back, i'm sorry i can't be perfect" sometimes... "it's a damn cold night, tryin to figure out this life, won't you take me by the hand take me somewhere new, i don't know who you are but i'm i'm with you!" am i the only girl who fantcizes about a life like that, were you always feel beautiful and mysterious guys come to rescue you from yourself?

Saturday, June 12, 2004

"formal"

i am on my way to a churchie formal with my friends. i borrowed this cutsie chinese dress up from katie s. ardi has her prom dress and sarah is complaining about wearing a dress. i like getting dressed up. the pants from the suit were killing me, so i have a slightly mismatched skirt, but it looks ok. i get to go party liike an idiot. i can't dance, but that's ok when i oknly see most of therse people once . as sarah says, party!!!

Friday, June 11, 2004

fit

my mommy is great! today she got me bally. i figured i would have to work my butt off to even come close to paying for it, and i still will in the monthly sense, but i may finally be able to start working off my fat ass. i am so sick of feeling big. i want to be confident around boys. plus i will get endorfens from it which will help stop depression and now i have at least one daily engagement for the summer (well 6 days a week) I feel weird about it because my mom is pushing off rent for this, but i have to smile at the good. i thank her. i hope to loose 15-20 punds by the summer's end, but any improvement is good.

Wednesday, June 09, 2004

me

You belong in the world of darkness and are a part of the despair.
You belong in the land of darkness, otherwise known
as one of the worlds in which I dwell. All here
is beauty inspired by tragedy and great sorrow.
Write or go through other creative outlets to
express the anguish you may be feeling, and
never let anyone tell you that you are just
being 'weepy' or full of 'teenage angst'(if
you're a teenager.If not, then they really
should be punished for calling you one. They
probably are trying to insult your
maturity...fools.)and always remain yourself,
dark and amazing. Never change.

Where do you belong?(ANIME IMAGES)
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Tuesday, June 08, 2004

mermaid

Aua Marine Mermaid
You are the Aqua Marine Mermaid. You are pure and
brave. Strong and True. Your best freind is
your seahorse, your steed. You have fought many
battles in your own life and in the sea. No
matter what challenge you overcome it.
Congratulations there are very few of you.
Would you rate my quiz for I am brave too?

What kind of mermaid are you? (Gorgeous Pics)
brought to you by Quizilla maybe, and probably, I'm just psycho, but sometimes I feel like this, and sometimes I'm so mad I just want to. The world is strange... but so am I.

first quizzie

entrancing
You have an entrancing kiss~ the kind that leaves
your partner bedazzled and maybe even feeling
he/she is dreaming. Quite effective; the kiss
that never lessens and always blows your
partner away like the first time.

What kind of kiss are you?
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